Chapter 24

„You’re late…“
„Sorry I needed a shower and forgot the time! Have you ordered already? “
“Uh lala…Aya I think you already had you’re lunch~ you’re so naughty!”
“Maki! It’s not what you think!” I shouted in disbelief.
Maki laughed.
“You can’t deny it! ~ I know Miki and she gets what she wants.”
I blushed, “Uhm…what do you mean by ‘I know Miki’?”
“Wooo?! She didn’t tell you?!” Maki asked surprised.
“About what…?” I shifted uncomfortable.
“Well you know…things happen when you get drunk…” she mumbled and looked away.
“You haven’t…had you?!”

“HAHA! Me and Miki? We never slept together. I was just joking.” She laughed.
“I hate you…” I huffed, “Anyway…Maki are those gossips true about your brother?”
She bit on her lip and looked down, “Yeah…they are true and well I might get in trouble now as well…”
“But you haven’t done anything! What’s this fuss all about?”
“You see…one of Yuki’s friends who helped him with his crime…well he was my boyfriend.”
I was so in shock that I spilled my coffee, “W-WHAT?!”
Maki looked around embarrassed, “Sshhh!”
“I’m sorry…” I whispered, “B-but…damn…did someone tell you already how your career will continue?”
“That’s why I’m in big trouble. You know how the rules are… I love my job and I don’t want to give it up. But I think I have no other choice…”
I could see tears forming in Maki’s eyes.
That’s so unfair…
“I feel so guilty…”
Maki looked up, “Why?”
I sighed, “Well look…Miki and I am together. Even if we aren’t allowed to. You were in a relationship and everything came out. Why you? I feel guilty because you did so well to hide it no one would have ever seen it. It’s so unfair… you could lose everything.”
“Aya. It could have happen to anyone. So don’t feel guilty. But the last thing you just said might be very true… I don’t know if I will be taken by another label.”
“I will graduate as well and then I will take you as a model for my agency!”
Maki laughed, “You’re so sweet Aya-chan. I will look forward to it one day.”
We both smiled at each other.

Maki was always right… Everyone always thought that she was some person with no feelings. But no.
She has feelings. Strong from the outside but weak from the inside. Well not weak! But she also has feelings and it’s good that she shows them.

Suddenly Maki’s cell phone rang.
It was her Manager.
“Aya-chan I need to go. I will call you when I’ve found the time. Thank you for listening.”
I just nodded and we smiled at each other once more before she left.


“Ok! We’re finished. Good job Matsuura san. Tomorrow we will repeat this again and then there’s only one last meeting next week.”
“Thank you. See you tomorrow. Good night.” I said happy but more because of the fact that I finally have finished my work for today.
I put on my jacket, grabbed my bag and made my way down to the lobby.
Why is my work suddenly so boring?
There’s nothing what is exciting. But maybe it’s only a phase for me?

“Ah. Aya chan wait a sec please.”
I turned around and was quite surprised seeing Abe san here.
“Oh, good evening Abe san! Can I help you with something?”
“Yes, actually you can. Miki asked me for something and I found some information. Could you give it to her if you see her?”
“Yeah sure, I’m going to her place right now so it’s no big deal.” I smiled and took the sheets of paper, putting them into my bag.
“Information you said?” I asked Abe san.
She nodded and smiled, “It might be better if you ask Miki about it because I don’t have a clue why she wants this.”
“Hooo… I see. Well, I must go now. It was nice meeting you again!” I smiled and gave her a wink.
She returned it, “Keep up your great work Aya chan! Bye bye~”

Great work? Oh well…

Outside it was cold and raining. I can’t believe that this year will be over soon again.
Why am I in such a sad mood?
Aya stop thinking this kind of crap and hurry to Miki’s place!



Miki’s front door was opened so I went in.
“I told you get out of here you idiot!”
“No I won’t! Tell me why you don’t want to marry me!”

Oh great… Could this day get even worse?

“Hey…get out.” I said calm.
He threw his arms up into the air, “I won’t! And it’s none of you’re business anyway!”
“Get out.” I repeated giving him a glare.
He ignored me and grabbed Miki’s wrist.
“OK! That’s enough! I will kick your ass out of here!” I shouted, pulled him to the door and pushed him out.
He fell onto the floor.
“Dare you to touch her again!” I said in a very angry tone.
Miki was quite shocked by my reactions but came up to me after a few seconds of staring.
“If you come here once more I will call the police, you heard me?!” Miki shouted and closed the door.

I sighed, “I was really close to knock him out.”
“You were. I’m glad you didn’t because then we’re in really bad trouble.”
“Oh please don’t say the word trouble...” I groaned and collapsed onto the sofa.
Miki sat herself beside me, “Are you ok?”
“No…not really. It’s just…Can we make out and stop the time?”
“We could do the first but I’m not sure if we’re able to do the second.” She smiled and kissed me.
I let out a smile as well and let Miki climb on top of me.
“You know…I think that I should quit everything and just be here with you.”
“Mh…give your head a break time for today. Relax and uhm… relax~”
I giggled and yawned.
My princess helped me out of my jacket and stroked through my hair.
It was making me feeling comfortable and sleepy.
“Go and sleep a bit Aya chan.” She said cute and kissed my lips once more.

The nice and slowly movments of her hand on my head were leading me into dreamland.

“I…num num…love you so…mhh…much Miki…”
She whispered something back but I couldn’t quite get it.
I was too sleepy.

Chapter 23

It had stopped snowing.
But still it was freezing cold.
I looked around but there was no sight of Fujimoto.
“Damn…” I sighed, let my hands slip into my pockets and looked down.
There were big prints pulped into the snow. Footprints!
With my hands still in my pockets I followed them.
I knew that he would get mad… But now was the right time to tell them. I don’t regret anything.
It’s needed to be said, right?
The scenery I’m going through is familiar to me.
Again I remember more memories.
I was walking to this little channel in the center of Takikawa.
The last time I was there I wondered what Miki means to me. I began to realize that she was more than just a good friend for me…
I looked up to the bridge that leads to the other side of the channel.
Slowly I walked up to it and stopped.
A fresh gust of wind hit my body.

“Why are you here?” Mr. Fujimoto asked quietly without turning back.
He had his arms rested on the rail and was looking down.
I took a step closer and did the same. I only looked straight.
“Because I want to talk to you.”
No response.
“Miki and I…we like each other really well. In fact we are more than just good friends.”
“That’s impossible. You can’t be more. Two girls can-“
“Mr. Fujimoto stop acting like someone of 1600 or something like that.” I said firm.
Inside I was filled with anger but that would be the wrong way to talk with him.
“Have you listened to a single word Miki said?” I asked looking at him.
He gave me a light nod.
“Those words she said were coming from the bottom of her heart. That’s how she feels. And this whole situation wasn’t hard only for Miki. It was hard for me too. When she came back from here she changed completely. She always kept saying that it was ok. That she was ok. But she wasn’t. Do you know how I found out about what was going on? It was th-“

“Why are you telling me all this?” he interrupted.
I sighed.
“Listen. Please. Because you don’t see how messed up this is. How she feels. What she went through.”
He shut up.
“…I found out through a magazine. A world collapsed for me. The woman I love the most on earth betrayed me? I wanted answers so I went to her apartment. And hell yeah what I saw there was making me sad and angry. Mr. Fujimoto how would you feel when you would find out that you’re wife is dating someone else?”
“She would never do that!” he shouted and turned towards me.
“You would react angry right? You’re world would collapse too? You wouldn’t see any point in life.” I answered for him, “And I felt like that in that moment. Miki started explaining everything to me while she was crying badly. Now ask me again, why am I teling you all this?”


“Because I love her. And she loves me. How could you make your daughter so sad and scared? Don’t you love her? Why can’t you respect the way she wants to life her life. She knows what she is doing. And she loves every bit of her life. I know. She tells me. I see it. If she would have been unhappy she would changed it directly! Miki is strong.”

I wonder if all that made sense to him.

“She’s right.”

Quickly I turned around and Fujimoto did as well.
“Miki?” he asked irritated.

She smiled and snuggled up to me.
“Every word she said is true, dad. You did hurt me. I felt so sad and angry because you don’t trust me. Aya is there beside me almost every day. I don’t blame you because you aren’t, but she notices everything, even if it is little, about me. If I would live at home you would see how I well I can handle my life. I know you care about me. But you went too far…”

Mr. Fujimoto looked at her. Was he going to cry?!
“I’m sorry Miki…You’re right…I should have trusted you. I never wanted to hurt you. You’re my everything…” Fujimoto said sadly.
“Apologize to Aya as well…you have hurted her too. And she means everything to me. I love her so much and it’s pain to see her hurt too.” Miki said and looked up to me.

I gave Miki a small smile and put my arm around her, giving her a hug.

“I see what she sees in you Matsuura san… Have I ever seen Miki so happy? I think not…She has a look in her eyes and somehow that calms me down.” he says looking at us, “But Matsuura san. If you won’t…Miki? Could you please cover your ears?”
She looked confused but did so.

“…If you won’t treat her well I will search you up and beat your damn ass up!!!” He shouted at me.
My eyes popped out in surprise and I shifted uncomfortable.
He began laughing.
“Just joking. Please take good care of her.”
“I will.”

I will…for the rest of my life.

“Well then…I will go and calm your mother down.” He said to Miki.

I laughed and took her hands down. They were still covering her ears.
Mr. Fujimoto and I shared a big laughing at her.

“Have I missed something?” she asked confused.


Miki and I sat down on the stones that were under the bridge.
I held her close to me.
“Did it really happen? We’ve told them.”
“We did. Somehow it’s a really strange feeling…I never had done something like that before…you know…um…like introducing my boyfriends to them.”
“Me either…so what do you think? Will this be all over now?” I asked.
“As long as you don’t want to marry me.” She laughed with a smile.
“Uhm…actually…this was the next thing I wanted to ask.”
Miki looked at me with wide opened eyes, “You what?”
I looked at her dead serious but dropped it the next second.
“Just joking!” I laughed and kissed her cheek.
She giggled along.

No I actually wasn’t joking when I said that… But there’s no way we can do it.
I still got the feeling that Mr. Fujimoto didn’t quite get the fact that we’re together…
More than friends… I think this needs another talk with him. But not now and not this weekend. I’m glad that we’ve talked about how mIki feels and so on.
I’m thinking too much! Maybe he got it? And I’m just still worried?
Uhm…I will talk to him once more…just to be sure.

“But actually…” she trailed off.
Now I looked at her with wide opened eyes, “Uhm? Miki…you know something like that is quite impossible here in Japan.”
“I know…it’s a shame somehow. And it means that we have to quit our jobs or we get fired…”
“And I don’t actually know if I can carry you over the doorsill!”
“What the?! Sure you can!” she shouted at me.
“Hey…” I pinched her cheek softly, “Sure I can, and I’m just joking.”
“Hmpf!” she turned around.
“And you know what…?” I whispered, brushed her hair besides and kissed her neck.
“Mhhmm…?” she mumbled.
“We will share a hot night after I carried you over the doorsill and then to our bed.”

“…I like the idea.” She whispered with a sexy tone in her voice.


The next morning the Fujimoto’s drove us to the airport.
“Aya? Are you coming? I want to check in.” Miki said.
“Yah…Give me 1 minute please.” I replied with a smile.
I turned around and looked up.
“Uhm Fujimoto san?”
“Yes Aya chan?”
“I just wanted to ask if you have understood the kind of relationship Miki and I have. Well like you know doing things…we are a couple so…you know-“
“Aya chan I don’t need any private details please…It’s still hard to believe the situation but I trust in you. I want that my Miki chan is happy. And when you are the person that makes her happy its fine by me. I give you both my blessings if it’s that what’s bothering you. You are part of our family matsuura san. Well you always have been kind of! So please take care you too. And I hope you visit us more often. But please…no private things in our home ok?”

I blushed. If he would know what we’ve already done…I’m so dead!!!

“T-thank you very much Fujimoto san!!!” I smiled.
He smiled as well and said good bye to me.
On my way to the information desk I said good bye to Mrs. Fujimoto as well.
“Aya! Hurry up!” Miki shouted at me.

I smiled at her and was happy.
And now let’s go back to Tokyo with new energy!

Chapter 22

It was quite early in the morning when I opened my eyes.
Blood gushed up to my head and I pulled the blanket up to hide it.
“How long have you been watching me?!” I mumbled embarrassed into the sheets.
Miki giggled every so cutely that it melted my heart.
She joined me under the blanket and looked at me with a smile, “Does it matter?”
“Since maybe 20 minutes. You look so adorable when you sleep.” Playfully she touched my cheek, “You even drooled a bit.”
“Enough!” I speaked and felt even more embarrassed.
Miki just laughed very loud.
‘Payback time’ I thought.
I began to tickle her. She was naked so it had even more success.
She began screaming, kicking and punching me at the same time.
Oh I so didn’t care I continued. I had my fun.
A devilish grin came to my face.
But as fast as it came it was gone when I felt pain in my lower zone.
Ok so one kick managed to get me.

“Not again!” I rolled over to my side in pain.
Miki who used the chance to recover hasn’t noticed it.
She brushed away the tears from laughing and turned me around.
“Do you have a habit of kicking me there? It’s the third time now!” I winced.
“Huh?” was her confused reply.
I showed her where she kicked me and then I got embarrassed again when I noticed that I was actually naked as well.
The only thing she did was staring. Hey was that a smirk on her face?!
“Mou…I hate you…” I groaned and lay myself on belly.
Miki put her warm hand onto my back, “Sorry.”
I remained ‘pissed off’.
Then she began to kiss it. Slowly. Up and down.
When she reached my neck I tried hard not to shiver.
She kissed her way up my jaw and then to my ear.
I took in a deep breath.
But when she began to breathe into it I couldn’t resist anymore.
I pushed her down and bend over her.

“Gosh you turn me so on.” I whispered and kissed her hungrily.
She pulled me closer and held me tight.

Knock knock.

The door opened slowly.
Miki pushed me away that I fell off the bed.
“Wait! Don’t come in! I’m getting changed!” she shouted.

The head of Miki’s mother popped in “Ups. Sorry dear. Where is Aya?”
“Erm…Bathroom?” Miki stuttered.
“Oh…ok. I just wanted to tell you that I will make breakfast now.”
She excused herself and closed the door.

I lay there on the ground. Nervous and not breathing.
‘What the…?’
Miki came around the bed and pulled me up.
I looked at her and raised an eyebrow, “You are quick in changing!” I said and was quite surprised how quick she managed to get her underwear on in only a few seconds.
“I’m sorry for pushing you! But I really had no other choice! God! Do you think she saw us?!”
Miki looked at me with a scary face.
“I don’t think so. Think we were quite lucky…” I sighed and got dressed.
“Maybe you’re right…” Miki said. But still she wasn’t calm down at all. I wasn’t too.
“I think…we should keep things low when we are here.” I finally said.
“No!” Miki blurted out. And I looked at her in surprise.
She lowered her head, “No…why should we? They must respect our doing…Ok maybe it’s not very good when they see us in quite more private moments like this…But still, we want to tell them that we are together. I want to show them that I am no kid anymore and that I can handle and decide things on my own now.”
I smiled and rested a hand on her hair slowly brushing through it.
“You are right. We can do this.” I said and kissed her head.

The sun was going under and Takikawa was covered by a shade of red.
Miki and I were sitting in the living room, waiting for Mr. and Mrs. Fujimoto coming back from their stroll outside.
Miki said that she wants to talk first to them. I told her that it was going to be ok but I would listen carefully and fight back if something would happen.

The front door opened and two people were stepping in. Here they are.
“Oh, nice to have you downstairs some time.” Mrs. Fujimoto said and we just nodded.
Miki’s father smiled “Well, I will go to the cellar and work on my model ship.”

“Wait!” Miki replied.
Both looked at her in surprise.
“I…we want to talk to you.”
Mr. Fujimoto sat down in his chair und Mrs. Fujimoto sat beside him on the crutch.
“What is it dear?” He said.
Miki took a deep breath.
“Actually…I came here to say something to you. 2 things.”
They nodded.
“I’m not going to marry Shouji. And I will not marry anyone.” She said and waited.
Mr. Fujimoto coughed, “So you decided to break our hearts?”
I gave him an angry look. How dare he?!
I felt a pressure on my knee. It was mIki’s hand. She must have sensed my anger.
“I don’t want to break your hearts, but do you want to break mine for you making me something to do I don’t want to do?”
“Cut it out.” He said and leaned forward, “We talked about that. You are a grown woman. Don’t you too think it’s time to marry and start a family?”
“Yeah, when you think I’m grown why you won’t let me live my life how I want it to be? I don’t need anything more to make it better. I have everything.” She said polite.
“I don’t agree on that. You are in a dream world. You need to wake up.”
“Dream world?!” Miki shouted back, “Do you have any idea of how hard I’ve worked to get everything I needed and wanted?! Maybe I was in a dream world when I was a teenager! But I learned how hard life can be! Have you any idea how hard it was leaving safe home as a child?”
Fujimoto said nothing.
“And now you, my parents, who I thought would support me for being me, are against me?”
“We never said that we won’t support you!” Fujimoto bit back.
“So, why are you doing this? Making me to go out with a man…no boy I don’t love? Wanting me to marry him? HE lives in a dream world dad! YOU live in a dream world too! That is not as easy as you think! You need to discover feelings for this person.”
Miki’s mother looked at her husband.
“Mom, why do you love dad?” Miki then asked.
Mrs. Fujimoto looked puzzled, “Erm…”
“You grew to like him right? Having found someone who cares about you. Never letting you down in bad situations. Loving the way he touches you. Loving it only to sense him near you, right?”
She nodded and blushed a bit.
“And that’s why I can’t do something what’s against my heart and me.” Miki whispered.
“What are you actually trying’ to say?” Fujimoto said still with an angry tone in his voice.

Miki took my hand and squeezed it. I listened so closely and I nearly began to cry by her words. She was speaking of her feelings.
“I can’t marry anyone I don’t love. And I love someone already from the bottom of my heart.”
“You have a boyfriend? Why haven’t you told us?” Mik’s mum asked in disbelief.
Miki shook her head.
“No. But I’m in love with the loveliest person on earth.” She said and smiled shyly.
“Who’s it?” Fujimoto asked.
“She is sitting right beside me.”

Mr. and Mrs. Fujimoto looked at each other totally confused.
“What?” They both asked at the same time.
“I’m the person Miki’s in love with.” I finally said looking dead serious at them.
Fujimoto laughed, “Do we have the 1st of April already?”
I knew he won’t believe it…
“No. We haven’t” I said and was quite surprised that Miki said the same at the same time.
I looked at her. She was looking straight into the eyes of her father.
‘My…she’s so cool…’ I thought for a second but got pulled back into reality when I heard a slam on the table.
“I will not allow that!” he shouted and stood up.
“Where are you going?!” Miki shouted after him.
But back came nothing. He put on his jacket and went outside.

“I will follow him.”
Miki looked up at me, “What?”
“I will follow him. I won’t leave until I got his blessing for us. I promised you and I’m going to hold it. At least I will try.”
Miki took my hand, “I’m coming with you.”
I shook my head, “No, you stay here. Don’t worry I will come back to you.”
I smiled and gave her a wink.
She smiled back and places a kiss onto my lips.
“Be carful. I love you.”
“I love you too.”

I went past Mrs. Fujimoto and she looked at me with wide opened eyes.
When I put on my jacket I could hear her talking to Miki.
But I hadn’t had any time to listen.
I needed to talk to Mr. Fujimoto.

Chapter 21

The strong cold made my body freeze like hell.
Snow was covering me so fast that I nearly looked like a Snowman…
If I have to stay another minute like that I will die.

“Miki…we are standing here for 30 minutes now…it’s freezing cold here and it only needs a press on the doorbell to get in…” I said grumpy pointing at the house of Miki’s parents.
Miki bit on her lower lip, took my hand and squeezed it. That made me wince out in pain.
I glared at her. She gave me her puppy look.
I took a deep breath and sighed. A heavy steam cloud came out of my mouth.
“I can do it.” She finally said.
“You’re not alone. I’m right here.” I comforted her.

Miki suddenly rushed to the door, dragging me behind her.
She put up her ‘everything is alright’ face and pressed the doorbell.
The door opened and Mrs. Fujimoto was standing there.
“Miki-chan?” she asked surprised.
Then she looked at me, “And Aya-chan too!”
I know the question ‘what are you doing here?!’ was burning on her tongue but the lady brushed it off and said we should come in.
Miki and I stepped in. The floor was now covered with snow which immediately melt down.
“Gosh you two are totally wet! Miki you could at least have called that you will visit us!” Mrs. Fujimoto said quite angry to Miki but then smiled, “Go get yourself changed and come downstairs again. I already cooked and I will warm it up for you two. Do you need towels?”
Miki was quite lost in her head so I answered that we will be fine.
I took Miki at her wrist and she followed me upstairs.
When we entered Miki’s childhood room there was a little silence between us.
I sighed and let our bags fall onto the ground.
“I can’t believe we are here…” Miki said and sat down on her bed.
“Don’t worry it will be fine.” I kissed Miki’s forehead. She closed her eyes and nodded.
“We have the whole weekend to tell them. Just relax for a bit. We can do this.”

Suddenly she took my hand and pulled me towards her. It all happened quite fast.
Her eyes were looking at mine.
Slowly she came nearer to my face but stopped. She had one eye suddenly. It looked quite funny!
Strains of hair were tickling against my skin and I sensed her warm breath against my lips.
“I missed you.” She whispered and kissed me.
My body began to shiver and I wrapped my arms around her neck.
It was a kiss we haven’t had a long time. Full of love.
After this kiss we just lay there saying nothing just looking into our eyes.
I kissed her one more time and after it she rested her head on my shoulder.
“I think we should go back downstairs, Aya.” She said.
Actually I would have loved to stay liked that for the rest of the day…but Mrs. Fujimoto warmed us up some dinner. And it was waiting for us.

We went down and entered the living room.
Miki’s father greeted us with a big smile, “Nice to have you two here. But you could at least have called Miki.”
“Yeah…uhm…somehow I thought I told you already.” Was the kind of weak reply of Miki.
We seated ourselves at the table and began to eat the meal that was standing on it.
Everything was quiet.
The situation somehow scared me now too…
Something is just not right...but I can’t tell what it is…
Miki and I were sitting in cave of the lion. Maybe that was the reason we felt so uncomfortable.
It took quite a lot not to burst into anger and let all my feelings out I had created over the last days.
I want to shout at them for forcing Miki to marry.
But I was here to get their blessing for us both…so it wouldn’t be the best to start a fight with them…Sooner or later it will happen this weekend anyway… But then if it will come to a fight I will tell them what I think about them!
I actually like Miki’s parents. Very much. But forcing Miki into something she doesn’t want isn’t nice at all. And they need to know that. Maybe not today but tomorrow.

“Say Miki…” Mr. Fujimoto started.
I sensed something. It was like a shiver through my whole body.
Miki must have sensed it too because she grabbed my hand.
“…how are things going with S-“

“Ohh! Miki! Damn! I lost my watch on the way here!!” I blurted out before he could finish his sentence.
I know it was lame. It just happened.
Miki realized that I was trying to act and joined me.
“Oh no! It was a present of your cousin! We have to find it!”
Lame. Really lame Miki. She played worse than I did.
Mr. Fujimoto looked really confused but told us that we should search for it.
We excused us and went outside.

“Cousin?! I don’t even have one! How about grandma or mother?!” I said angry.
“Watch?! You didn’t even took one with you! How about your wallet or cell phone?!” she replied throwing her arms up to the air.
“Oh cut it out already!”
“You started it!”
“Only to get your butt safe out of there!”
“Thanks but I could have managed that in another way!”
We argued and argued and haven’t realized how far we went.
I stopped and looked in front of, “Hey…look.”
Miki made a pissed off noise and followed my look.
“Oh…” she replied her voice getting quieter.

We were standing on the hill where we were the last time when we were her.
At that time it was full of bright flowers. And now it’s covered by snow giving a wonderful view of the landscape.
Suddenly something hit me on my shoulder.
“YIKES!!!” I screamed. It was damn cold!
Miki giggled forming something in her hand.
She threw a snowball at me!
“Whoa…you so gonna pay for that…” I grinned.
“Yah?” she laughed.

And so our snowball fight began.
First it looked good for Miki but then good for me.
We were playing and fighting like little kids. It made really fun!

“Uhhh watch out my dear!” I screamed and ran towards her, “ATTAAACK!!” I shouted and tackled her.
“Whoaaa!” Miki managed to scream while we fell to ground.
We were rolling down the hill, fighting and laughing.
When we stopped I was on top of her still laughing.
She laughed along and slapped my cheek carefully, “I hate you.”
I grinned and poked her nose with mine.
“I’m sorry about shouting at you.” I apologized.
Miki waved with her hand, “No I need to be sorry. You just wanted to help me.”
“Then we’re both sorry. Quit?” I asked smiling down at her.
“Quit.” She smiled back and pulled me towards her again.
We kissed us again.
I wanted to feel her in a special way again.
She might have read my thought.
“It’s getting dark. Maybe we should go back and spend some nice time together a little bit longer?”
I grinned at her and she replied with a naughty laugh.

And so we did what we both wanted so desperately.
The room was filled with heat that could melt away the whole snow on Hokkaido.
Miki took a deep breath, “To answer your question of yesterday: Yes you are really good in bed.”
I managed a laugh and turned to face her.
“But you know” she added and stroked my cheek, “It’s not only about skills or something like that. I feel good every time you touch me. To feel you in other ways makes me shiver. I love to share moments like this with you together.”
I smiled and kissed her, “You’re so sweet.”
“I know” she replied cute and blushed.

I took her in my arms and she snuggled herself into me.
We both drifted off to dreamland after a while.

Chapter 20

The room was dark and everything was quiet.
I was looking up to the ceiling and thought about everything that happened over the last years and months.

There was this girl. Older than me. She looked so beautiful.
Her name was Fujimoto Miki. I thought she could be a rival for me…but it didn’t take long and we became friends.
We were quite different. But we matched perfectly.

I remember our first sleepover. Gosh, I was really nervous. She grew to be someone special in my heart.
I tried my best to make everything perfect. I even did a checklist with things. It was really crazy.
When the doorbell rang I quickly ran to the door and opened it and shouted out a nervous “Helloo!~”
My reaction has confused her so much that I blushed. I thought my face would start burning in any minute.
But when she giggled I relaxed.
“Everything ok?” she asked and stepped into my apartment.
“Sure! E-everything is alright! Would you like to play some games?”
I know it was a silly question but I was still a kid somehow at that time!
And so things went on and on… I lost one game after another and was quite pissed off but I showed it in a jokey way.
My mother came in sometimes and asked if we need something. That was so kind of her.
I remember that she had to calm me down very often that day.
But my nervousness was gone so sudden.
I enjoyed the evening so much.

Sleepovers got to a routine for us. First we tried to do it every week but when we grew older and had more work to do they got less.
But that didn’t change anything in our friendship.
I remember that some members were a little bit jealous of us.
Somehow we always stand out from the crowd.
But that changed as well.
I went on with my solo career but Miki decided to join Morning Musume.
I was quite surprised at first that she would give her solo career up, but as long as she was happy everything was fine by me.

Years passed and our friendship grew stronger.
There were times were we piss each other off and fight but without it it would be strange, wouldn’t it?
I loved it.
And since GAM everything changed.
I discovered a side of her I didn’t know yet.
A side that felt more for me than friendship…
I never have seen it. I ignored everything she felt at that time.
And then when she hid her feelings deep inside her heart I grew to love her.
I felt strange. Really strange.
We went thru so much trouble at that time.
There were many moments where I wanted to tell her what I feel.
And then, when we were on Hawaii, I put my strength together and told her that I love her.
I was scared. I remember that I had covered her body with sand so she wouldn’t be able to hit me…
But she managed to get free…and kissed me back…
My mind was exploding at that moment!
The feelings she hid came back.
I was the happiest woman on earth…
We were together. That was all I wanted. To have the woman I love beside me.
Miki and I began to touch us in other ways than before and it felt really good.
And then… Everything collapsed. My whole world was turned upside down, when she began to ignore me. I couldn’t stand it! I was sick worried. And even worse I didn’t know that she was dating someone. But not on her own will… Everything was decided by her parents… I had to believe her. I had no other choice and I felt that she was telling the truth…

And now? I’m lying here besides her. She’s sleeping peacefully and plays in her dream world. What is going to happen from now on? There is so much trouble…scandals about her and Shoji. How should she get them straight again? Will she lose her job? Will she ever be able to get back to a normal life? Will her parents accept her decision being with me? Does she even want to tell them about us?
There are so many questions…But I love her and I will help her. And when she loves me she will accept my help.
“Mhh…Aya-chan…? Why are you awake?” I felt Miki shifting nearer to me.
I turned to her and let out a little sigh, “I just couldn’t sleep well. There are things in my head that are driving me a bit crazy…”
I could tell, even when it was dark, that she looked worried.
She caressed my cheek with her hand, “I know it’s hard…but I really want to fix it all. I will do everything. I will sort out everything. I promise you.”
“But what will happen? Will you lose your job, Shoji, will he be up to something…your parents…”
She tugged her arms around me and hugged me tight, “Please trust me. I will do everything to make things better. Everything what is good for you and for me. I love you so much and I don’t want to lose you. I nearly had.”
I never felt so comfortable. It made my heart beat faster. I will do this…I will trust her. One last time. Maybe it’s a bad decision but I have no other choice…My heart tells me to do this.
I returned her hug and kissed her.
Tears were dropping onto her soft skin. My tears. But after she felt them she began to cry as well and our tears mixed.
The room now was filled with sobbing noises
“Ahh…what?...Let me sleep…” I moaned.
“It’s important…” Miki began shaking me.
I turned around, “Let me sleep…”
“I will fly to Takikawa this afternoon.” Miki said and kept shaking me awake.
I turned around and looked at her confused, “What?”
She just nodded.
“Why?” I asked and sat up.
“I want to tell them. About me and you…” she said quietly hard to understand.
“You really…? You really want to do it?” I asked and took her hand.
She nodded again, “Even if I won’t be their daughter anymore or they will hate me for the rest of their life’s. But I need to do this. I want to stop this.”
“I will come with you.” I said and stroked her cheek.
“You don’t have to… I don’t want you to get in trouble.” She replied and took my hand with hers.
“Well they would come to Tokyo then and haunt me. So it doesn’t matter if they would kill me in Hokkaido or here. “I laughed.
Miki smiled a little.
“Miki-chan, I will come with you.”
She just nodded.

We will do this together no matter what. Maybe I we will get their blessing. If not it doesn’t matter. Miki showed me that she takes it serious right now.
We can do it!

Chapter 19

The last months were really funny and exciting. And I’m really surprised that we have May already!!
Miki and I had a nice new year, it was really special and a funny timing when we both…
I giggled.
Then the concerts I attended, our Single making and release of ‘LuLuLu’. We had so much fun…
And I have not to forget our 1st Album! And now…

“Matsuura-san, Fujimoto-san, you have to be on stage in 7 minutes.” A stuff member walked in and told us.
We both nodded. Yeah…GAM’s first tour…It couldn’t be better, really.
“We will give our best, okay? I mean…we always do, right?” I began to laugh and took Miki’s hand.
“Hm? Are you ok?”
“Huh? Ye-yeah sure!” She quickly said and smiled. Was she nervous? I was too…
“Hey…we are a great team. Nervous? I’m too, so don’t worry…” I whispered and gave her a kiss on the cheek. She nodded and we were walking to the stairs that led to the stage.
I took a peep on Miki again. I wonder what’s on her mind the last days, because her behaviour changed since she came back from Hokkaido...Or it has to do with Sanma...He made some really stupid jokes on her...

“3…2…1, ok! Go, go, go!” The staff member shouted.
We ran out on stage and to see all of those thousands of people sitting and standing there, waiting for us to sing was a really good feeling. You had to give your best for making them smile and when they enjoyed it, it brought a huge smile on your own face.

I was sweating, exhausted and tired. The concert was just awesome. I really had fun and Miki seemed to have it as well.

“Nice work you two, but shorter dresses would bring even more people to your concerts.”
We both looked at the door.
Miki stuttered.
“Sanma-san!” I blurted out of surprise, “You watched our concert?”
“Yes, didn’t Miki tell you?”
“No…” she said and looked away.
“Oi! Why haven’t you said anything to me?” I asked sad.
“…forgot it.” Miki replied and shrugged.
“Fujimoto seems to have a bad mood huh? I told her that I will come and watch your concert. And also...I saw this comedian outside somewhere...This...erm Shouji...why are you inviting HIM to your concerts?”
“He’s here?” asked, “Where is he?”
“Cut it out!” Miki shouted angry and walked to the door.
“Where are you going?”
“Getting a drink!” she shot back and glared at me. I stood there, shocked.

“What the fuck is wrong with her?!” I shouted. Sanma shrugged, “Fujimoto is like that…I think it’s nothing new.”
He was wrong. I know her since years. She has her little moment, especially this death look. But the way she looked at me right now was different. I was worried, what has been going on?
I hope she’s ok…
And why...is this Shouji here? I can’t stand him and who would invite him anyway...?

I was already finished and could have left any minute. Miki was still not back. But the door opened a minute later and it was her. She came in, took her things and walked o the door.
“Wo, wo, wo! Hold on!” I said and grabbed her by the arm, “Where are you going and what is wrong with you?!”
“1st, I’m going home! I stink! 2nd, nothing is wrong and 3rd, Bye!”
“Hey!” I shouted as she managed to release her arm and opened the door.
“Miki!” I shouted after her.
“Tell me what’s wrong…”
She reminded calm and her head sank.
“Bye…see you next week.”
“Why next week?!” I asked surprised.
“I-I have some things that have to be sold out. Tour and stuff…”
“I will call you.”
“No, I will. Don’t worry Aya it’s…everything is ok.” Miki’s voice sounded nervous.
I stepped forward and hugged her. She didn’t return it. Her arms were hanging loosely.
“Are you stressed? Is it because you became leader of Momusu…?” I whispered. Her head slowly found my shoulder. Just when she wanted to hug me back, a Staff Member shouted that her Taxi was there.
She quickly pushed me away. But it was gently.
“Wait…” I said.
She stopped and didn’t look back.
“I love you.”
She lowered her head and tightened her grip on her bag.
“I…love…you too”
What I was seeing shocked me. Miki ran away. I couldn’t really believe her when she said she loves me too.

When I came home I took a quick shower and went to bed.
No call from Miki. I sighed and pulled my blanket up to my chin. Actually I would be with her or she would be with me…
We would cuddle and she would babble about naughty things again. I would shush her…wait…no…it can’t have to do with our sex life. We both love it.
“Miki what’s wrong…” I sighed.
As more as I thought about a reason about her behaviour as scarier I got.
Doesn’t she love me anymore? Does she want to break up with me? Will she say “It’s over” on her next phone call she promised?

“Aw stop it already!” I said to my self and turned around.
I tightened my grip on the blanket and couldn’t hold my tears back.
It was too much pain suddenly. I love her so much.

Suddenly there was this accident of last year on my mind.
This big mountain gorilla called Yano. He used Miki. She thought he was taking it serious, but he only wanted to get her money. And he was also known by police. They were relieved that they found him in the end, because of my heroic reactions. But I only wanted to protect Miki, because I fell in love with her and she is my best friend.
I got away with a scar on my shoulder but it was worth it. Still…I wonder why she picked him…
The best thing would be when I would wait how this will go on. Maybe it is really because of the whole leader situation…

The next morning I got a call from Maki.
She wanted to go shopping. I said I didn’t want to go anywhere. Just when I was about to hang up, she said she will come over and pick me up.

“Oi! I said no!”

On the end of the line I just heard a click and the line was dead.
And Maki did what she said and was standing at my door, grinning like a little kid.

“You are an idiot Maki…” I said and glared at her.
“Nothing new to me, you know.” She replied cool and walked in.
I sighed, “Do you want a cup of coffee?”
“Nope. I just want to pick you up for ‘Maki’s BIG SHOPPING TAIKETSU’”
“I said I’m not in the mood for having fun!”
“Ok. What has Miki done this time?” Maki asked and sat down.
“Do you have a sense for knowing what she does?” I asked.
Maki thought about it, “I don’t know?” she shrugged, “but I know it’s about her again, right?”
I sighed, “Yes damn it! She is so strange the last days!”
“All of us realised that fact…it’s really strange. Is it because you aren’t good in bed?”
“No, I’m good. She lov- wo hold on?! What did you just say?”
I began to get nervous, “I’m not with her…you know.”

Maki began to laugh, “I know you are Aya. You don’t need to say anything against it.”
“H-how?” I asked and sat down as well.
“My senses…so, you don’t think it’s because of the fact you are bad in bed?”
“Hey I’m good! I made her get an HUGE orgasm on New Year!” I shouted back and blushed.
“Oh damn that’s so un-cool you know? And you didn’t have sex earlier?”
I shook my head.
“And you say you’re good? Prove it.”

I jumped up, “Maki stop it already!”
She began to giggle,”Sorry, ok so you have no clue what’s wrong with her recent behaviour?”
“Not at all… she doesn’t want to talk to me. But it feels like she is hiding something. She wants to hug or kiss you but something is holding her back.”
“She’s away until next week right?”
I nodded.

“Ok let’s not think of it. Maybe she really has been really stressed since she got Yossies leader position.”
She was right.
“You’re right, but…what is when she really wants to leave me?”
“You can still sleep with me.”
“Just kidding. So come on let’s have fun. And what’s wrong about the idea to go out every day? You will come on other ideas and can relax.”
I nodded.

It was weekend.
I had been very busy. But late at night I went out with other girls and really had fun.
But my mind was still on Miki. Everyone asked me about her and I had no proper answer…
And she hadn’t called. I tried and tried but she never answered.

On Wednesday I went out with Maki again. It was part 2 of her Shopping taiketsu again.
We went to Shinjuku this time and entered a little store to get a coffee and a little snack.
While I was paying, Maki suddenly stood behind me with a Magazine in her hands.

“What’s wrong? Don’t you feel well? You have no colour in your face.” I laughed.
She shook her head and gave me the magazine.
“Friday? I don’t read something like that you know.”
“Look at the title in the middle…”

I was irritated and looked at it.
“This is a joke, right?” I asked, “This only can be a joke!!!” I shouted this time.
“Shhhh! Not so loud!” Maki whispered and looked around.
“Not so loud?! This has to be a joke!! This can’t be true!” I looked thru the Magazine.

My eyes were growing wider as I read thru it.
How could this be real?! Miki is dating a guy?? And this guy is Shouji?! What the hell!!
They were seen together in a sauna, in a store, in a car and his apartment?! She stayed there for 3 days?!
Oh, now everything is making sense to me! Now I knew what she had to do!
“I have to go Maki.” I said and walked out.
“Wait?! What are you up to?!” Maki shouted and ran to catch up with me.
“I want to know the truth! And I want it from Miki! Damn Maki think!”
Maki grabbed me by the shoulder and stopped me, “Ok, stop. Go…But! Think before you do anything that you could regret in the end.”
“She will regret it for having me hurt! She played with me!” I took Maki by her wrist and put her hand away from my shoulder and caught the next taxi to get to Miki’s apartment.

I heard a click and the door opened.
“I want the truth.”
“Huh? What are you talking about?” she asked.
I threw the Friday magazine in front of her feet, “I want the truth.”
She looked at me and then to the magazine. She picked it up and looked at the cover.
Miki stared at it and her eyes looked like they would fall out.

“No, no, no! It is not like that how it looks like there!” she quickly said.
“Oh, no? Then…Tell me how it looks like then!!” I shouted and glared at her.
She looked around, “Come in, please…”
Without looking at her I stepped in. This was not a nice feeling…
I think I reacted a little bit too fast…I had no clue how to start.

“Do you want something? Tea or coffee?” she asked.
How dare she could be so calm?!
“The truth!”
“Why? Is it because you don’t love me anymore?”
“NO!” she shouted.
I raised an eyebrow. She looked away, “It’s not because of you…”

“It is! Just say it! You’re behaviour since last week, you were already with him right?! Because I’m no good for you! Damn, you’ve cheated on me! I’m not a doll with that you can play like you want!”
“You are-”

I slapped her.
She fell onto the ground.
“I am NO doll you bitch!” I screamed.

“…aren’t…” she whispered as she held her cheek
I stood there stunned. Okay, she didn’t finish her sentence but who cares?! Then the slap was for cheating on me and FINISH!
She looked away.
“Why? Damn Miki. I love you…no, I loved you! What on earth have I done that you do this to me?!”
“Wait! Please! You had nothing to do with it! It has to do with my-“
The sound of keys was hearing outside.

“Oh shit!” Miki quickly said and grabbed my arm.
“Oi! What are you doing?!” I shouted.
“Aya! Please be quiet! It is him. I don’t want him to see you here.”
“Oh yeah! And you are damn right because I will knock out his teeth!”
She was pushing me behind the door of the kitchen.
“Please Aya, hold still! You don’t understand it! Let me explain it to you…but now it is the wrong time!”
I stared at her, “You better tell me everything or I will do something-“
She sealed my lips with hers, “Please…”

The main door opened and Miki jumped back into the living room.
I stood still…For a minute my anger disappeared and I wondered my self why she kissed me.
She was playing with my feelings…

“I’m back!” I heard a man voice and saw Shouji entering the living room.
I had a good view actually.
Miki just stood there, “Hi…”
“And everything ok?” he asked.
“I think so.”
“You are really ok?” he asked and wrapped an arm around her neck.
Miki shifted uncomfortably.

‘Get your hands off her!’ I thought angry.

“Y-yeah.” She stuttered and released herself from his grip.
“You don’t look ok. Is it still because of the decision of your parents?”

What decision? Miki’s parents?

Miki stood there and looked away.
Shouji sighed and took his coat again, “Well…just wanted to bring you some food.”
“Thanks…” Miki said.
He stepped forward and lowered his head. He wanted to kiss her!!! No, no, no!
“No.” Miki said and turned her head away.
I was relieved. But why did she didn’t let him kiss her. They are together aren’t they? Or was Miki just playing her game because I was there? It hurt to think about it…
“You still don’t let me kiss, hug, bath or sleep with you?” he asked.

‘I will so gonna hit you!!’

“We were in separated saunas, you slept on my sofa etc. when we dated.” He sounded angry.
“I just don’t want this here!” Miki shouted back.
“Whatever, well you have got no other choice Miki. You chose me.”
Miki bit on her lip.
“Bye.” He said and walked out of the apartment.

I was more than just stunned. What the hell was going on?
Miki sat down on her couch and hid her face behind her legs.
Slowly I walked from the kitchen into the living room.
“What have your parents to do with it?” I asked and seated beside her.

“Arranged marriage…” she sobbed. She was crying.
“W-What?!!” I stuttered and hoped I heard wrong.
Miki nodded and looked up, “How should I start…”
I felt a mix of emotions.
“One and a half weeks ago I went up to Hokkaido and visited them... We went out and had a nice day…But then they told me they wanted me to get married.”
“W-Why…no I will shut up now…explain me everything…”

“I was surprised…”


*Conversation between Miki and her parents*

“You want what?!” Miki shouted.
“Calm down…” her mother told her.
“Calm down?! You want me to calm down after you said I should marry?! I don’t want to marry!”
“Miki sit down!” Mr. Fujimoto shouted and hit against the table.
Miki froze and sat down.
“Now…you are 21 years old. Old enough. Do you think you can live a life as a Star for ever?”
“Yes. Everyone can so I can too!”
Miki’s mom sighed, “But you don’t get the chance to meet some nice guys because of the rules you have to follow because you are in Morning Musume.”
“I don’t need to meet guys. I am happy with my life how it is! And I can deal with the rules very well. Do you think I give this all up only because of a guy? Never! I will not marry anyone!”

On the other side she would like to marry but it wouldn’t be a guy. She is with Aya and she loves her more than anything else. There would be nobody she would love to spend her life for ever as with Aya.

“Miki don’t get insane-“
“No! You two are already insane!” she replied angry.
“Fujimoto Miki! Stop that now! You will marry if you want or not! We care about you and are scared that your career could affect your life.” Fujimoto shouted again.
“Well then you have needed to think about all that before I went to my audition!”
“Miki…please you must understand that we only want the best for you. You can’t be on your own all the time. “Miki’s mum said quietly.
Miki thought a bit. She was angry.
“So…what will happen next? Will you go on a date with the guy we had chosen for you? Or will you continue your life as it is now and disappoint your own parents?” Fujimoto said calm.

For her the second way was the best way, but it also meant that she would hurt her parents.
And she loves them. They took care of her since she was on this world. But she had a plan in her mind…even she didn’t know if it would be the best…

“Ok. I will go on a date, BUT…don’t think too much of it.” She finally said.
Her parents were having big smiles on their faces.
”I knew you would choose the right way.” Her father said.


“…it turned out that this guy was Shouji.”
Her story was making sense, but could I believe it?
“Keep going…” I said.
She sighed, “So we took this 3 day date but nothing happened. Like I said, I told them I would go on this date but I never said that I would marry him afterwards. Well the difficult part is near…I have to tell them that I will not marry him…”
“So what does that mean?” I asked finally and looked at her.
“I still love you Aya-chan. And I would never ever in my whole life leave you for someone else. Even not for my parent’s sake.”
She had a truly look in her eyes.
“Is that true?”
She nodded and smiled, “Of course…I would even fly to the moon and shout that I love you sooo loud that you can hear it!”
She took my hand, “And…I’m sorry for having you hurt…I was too scared how you would react if I told you…trust me…I only play this thing…and there is another reason…”
“What other reason?” I asked.
“I don’t want to be in Morning Musume anymore. It’s too much for me. Actually it just came to my mind when I thought about this plan with this marriage thingy…”
“Are you sure? I mean…I understand you decision but…you already made it into the gossip magazines and newspapers. How will you tell everyone?”
“Dunno…didn’t thought about it yet.” She said with a grin.
“Whatever you do, I will support you.”

“Aya…? Do you still love me?”
After she explained every detail to me…Yes…
I nodded and hugged her, “More than anything else.”
It felt good to hold her again.
She began to sob again. I pulled away gently to get a better view of her, “Your ok?”
She nodded and smiled.

After a while we sat there just staring at each other.
“So your parents don’t know that you…erm…”
“No! They would kill me if they would know that their daughter is a lesbian celebrity and has Aya Matsuura as girlfriend!”
“Are you sure?”
“I think…so?”

We began to laugh.
“What about your parents?”
“By the way, I visit them next week, you wanna come with me? And no they don’t know….but I want to tell them.”
“I would love to but you really want to tell them about me and you”
“If it is ok with you, yes. Because they kept asking and asking me when I want to get a “boyfriend” I think they will take it easy that I became a lesbian. Never thought I would but you are reason enough~”
Miki giggled.

“What will you do with Shouji?”
“I will kick his ass out off here!!”
I grinned, “A bit hard but very good.”
“Are you still angry?”
“Only a bit...and I want to apologize for slapping you...I overreacted because I didn’t knew what was going on.”
“No it’s ok... Don’t worry about that... We are quit I think. The slap was for me that I kicked you down there twice.”
We laughed quietly.
“Say...Aya...Do you want to stay here over night?”
I nodded, “But what about him?”
“I don’t let him sleep here.”


We took a shower together and went to bed.
It was early but who cared.
Miki snuggled into me and closed her eyes.
It felt so good to have her back…actually I didn’t lost her.

“Am I good in bed?”


“I mean it dead serious!”
“Shhh… you are good…”
Miki looked up at me with a smile,” Yes you are and you can prove it tomorrow if you want.”
“Hmm that sounds good.” I grinned and kissed her forehead.
“Good night Aya-chan.”
“Good night Mikitty.”

Chapter 18

“IYAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! “
I heard a scream and before I had a chance to see what happened I felt a bad pain…
“Uh! OUCH! Miki?! What the X%”$!?!” I cried in pain.
“Your damn COLD feet touched mine!!!” Miki shouted and looked at me.
“Aw aw…ou…ch…”
She even hadn’t got a clue ‘where’ she had kicked me.
I kept rolling to the left side and then to the right side.
“What’s wrong?”
“W-what’s wrong?!” I cried out, “THAT’s wrong!!” I showed her where she kicked me.
‘Ups’?! Is all she can say?!
“It’s the second time you kicked me down there!” I whined. It still hurt.
“Awww…come on…don’t be so stupid…” she sighed and lay down onto her side again.
My eyes popped wide open.
“Even for GIRLS it’s PAIN to get KICKED down THERE!” I replied sharpen, “And even MORE when you are NAKED!!”
I pinched her butt.

“UUUHHHHH!!!” she quickly turned around, “AYA!!!”
I grinned, “We AREN’T quit…not yet.”
She gave me her super death glare.
“Honey, if you think your glare would work on me…you are wrong.”
“Then…what should I do to…” she came nearer and put her index finger under my chin, “…apologize?”
“Hm…I quite got an idea…” I grinned.
She grinned too.

A good deal later, we went into the shower and cleaned the mess we had left from our awesome night and from Miki’s apologize…

Miki and I we were both in a very good mood, so we choose to go to a temple.
It was cold but very nice outside.
“What will you wish for this year?” she asked me.
“I won’t tell you~”
“Aw come on! Pleeeeease.” She begged.
“Tell me yours.”
“No.” she laughed.
I smiled, “See.”

It was sad that we had to fly back after we went back from the temple.

The flight was quiet and without troubles. I hadn’t got time to stay at Miki’s place so I just went with her to the door.
“It was nice. I enjoyed it.” I said and put down her bag.
“Oh~ I enjoyed it too.” She had a smirk on her face…
Pervert girl you…

Miki looked to the left and I to the right.
“Safe.” We both said and kissed us.
“I will call you tomorrow. I will be away with the other girls, talking about a new single.” Miki said.
“Ok. I’ve got a lot to do as well…Well…let’s see…on Wednesday we will record the PV of Lu Lu Lu right?”
“Yep. What do you think? Will it be something like Melodies?”
“I hope so!” I began to laugh, “Well but I think Tsunku wouldn’t do that again…after all these rumors…”
Miki giggled, “But actually they were true, right?”
“But they don’t know…I hope.”
“Well ok…Love you and see you on Wednesday.”
I smiled and nodded.

“Goooood Morning girls~”
“Mooooorning.” We greeted a stuff member.
“Now…here are your plans for the PV. Nothing difficult. You two learned the choreography right?”
I nodded.
“Gooooood~ So Ok. There are your costumes. And the most…have fun hahaha~” the stuff member laughed and gave us a wink.
“I told you he’s gay…” Miki pinched my side.
“He iiiisn’t!” I replied.
Miki sighed and poked onto my forehead, “Believe what you want…”

“You’re ok?” I asked her.
“Hm? Yeah, of course.” Miki picked up her costume, “Why shouldn’t I?”
“Ah no…you’re just a bit quiet…that’s all.”
I had a look at the dresses…Ok I think when my mother will watch this PV she would give me a long preach that she doesn’t like it when she sees that I am wearing so short costumes again…
“I just got a call from my parents…they didn’t sound normal somehow…they said that I should come up to Hokkaido in May.”
“Why May? Not now?” I asked and got into the pants.
“Don’t know…they said that there is something we should talk about…Does it look good on me?”
I looked up, “Oh damnnnnn good~” I put up my hat and surrounded Miki’s waist with my arms, “So…they didn’t say about what they want to talk with you?”
“No…and that is what is worrying me.” Miki answered and checked my hat.

“GIRLS?! ARE YOU READYYYYY~~~?!” the stuff member shouted from outside.
“YEEEEEEES!” we shouted back.
“I believe you now…” I grinned.

“No, No, No! Cut!!” the director shouted.
“What?! What’s wrong this time?” I sighed angrily.
He stood up and came to us.
“You’re dance style is sooooo lame!”
“What?” Miki asked speechless.
He turned to Miki and grabbed her shoulders, “Straighten your back, damn it!”
That was enough!
I slapped his hands away and grabbed him by his collar. That even got the attention from the stuff and camera members.
“Watch out what you are-“

“Hey !! What’s going on?!”

It was Tsunku. What was he doing here?
I let go of the director. The director went to Tsunku and they began to talk.
The camera man soon joined the conversation. Tsunku kept calm but the director began to sweat.
After the 5 minute talk he threw his cap onto the floor and went out of the room.

“W-what happened?” I asked when Tsunku came up to Miki and me.
“Well he can search for another job now.” He said calm.
“Erm…huh? Are you allowed to do that?”
“Actually not, but he got fired sooner or later anyway. He did things he isn’t allowed to do so…”
Miki and I nodded.
“But Ayaya…” he started.
“Leave your ‘Asamiya Saki’ behavior at home, ok?”
I blushed and nodded, “O-ok. I’m sorry.”

Tsunku stayed and looked that everything went right.
It was funny but I was getting really tired…I hadn’t slept enough last night because I was on a TV show. So it was only 2-3 hours…
We got our schedules after the recording.

“Album recordings? GAM… WOW wait?! We get an Album?!”
Tsunku nodded, “Of course. It was time. There will be also a tour. Your first GAM tour. I think it will be a great Tour with many people.”
Hey wow it was getting interesting now!

Later I learned from Miki that she was happy about all this but it was too much. She will be Leader of Morning Musume soon…that would be a lot of hard work for her.
It also went to be that we haven’t seen us for weeks. The only thing we did was talking on the phone and sending us E Mails.

When Yossie Graduated from Morning Musume we all celebrated together.
Miki wasn’t there. She went up to Hokkaido and talked with her parents.
On the phone she didn’t wanted to talk about what they discussed.
She behaved different somehow…but I thought it had all to do with her part as Leader now…

To be continued…

Chapter 17

I think that I’ve spend the nicest Christmas in years. Everything was perfect.

And I also got another big surprise fore Miki, which she doesn’t know yet…

I booked a Hotel room in a traditional Japanese Hotel in Aomori for New Year. It was expensive, but nothing is more important for me to have a nice start into the New Year.

I wonder how Miki would react…

She just woke up besides me.

“31st until1st January, you and me in Aomori. Everything is booked already.” I said cheerfully and waited until Miki reacted.

Miki rubbed her eyes and looked sleepy at me ”Hmmm….what?” she took a break, making a groan sounds while she stretched herself. Suddenly her eyes opened fast.

“What?! Aomori?!”

I nodded and smiled “Yup. Excited?”

“G-Good joke Aya!” Miki giggled and turned around again.

“It’s no joke.”

“Aw…come on Aya…” she faced me and patted on my cheek.

“It –is –no –joke –my –dear.” I repeated slowly and more believable.

She looked like her eyes were going to “pop” out of her head “Oh…?”

Miki blinked a few times

“YES!! Oh YES!” she suddenly screamed, hugged and kissed me to death.

“Slow down, slow down!” I laughed and gently pulled her back again.

“Aya…it’s really no joke?”


She looked happy to me.

“Oh…wait; do we have no show on the 31st?”

“Nope. Don’t know why, but when I beg Tsunku for days off, I’m lucky. This year we had pretty much days off haven’t we?”

“Yeah…somehow you are right! Hey well…isn’t that bad huh? We spend much time together in those days.” Miki smiled and snuggled up to me.

“Uhn…”I replied with a wide grin.


I had still much work to do the days before 31st of December.

Interviews, recording my New Year message, talking about plans for the beginning of 2007, some ideas for new commercials and much more.

It was a lot but I worked hard. It was sad that Miki and I weren’t able to fly to Aomori together.

So we had to meet us there. She managed to check in one day earlier.

When I arrived at the big traditional Hotel I was really amazed. A really old but somehow modern Hotel. The room that I booked was 100 meters away from the main building in a little forest. The atmosphere was really relaxing. The whole hotel was split in 8 parts. I booked the quietest and most remote Apartment like Room. (LOL sorry hard to describe my thoughts here^^’’Well I think you need a lot of fantasy xD)

I pushed the door to the right side, stepped in and took my shoes off.

“Miki? I’m here now.” I said and looked around. “Hm…nice.”

“Hey~” Miki greeted me.

I smiled, “Your ok?” I asked, bend down and gave her short kiss on her lips, like a husband would give it his wife when he heads of for work or coming back.

“Yeah, had a god fly? Nice here Aya, isn’t it?”

“Uh yeah…fight was boring without you…and it is really nice here. I’m pretty good in finding good places to stay huh?”

Miki giggled.

I put down my bag and sat besides Miki.

“So Miki…what do you want to do?”

She took a deep breath:

“Taking a nice bath in the hot springs, sitting here in yukatas, order some food and yeah …just being with you…”

I was quite surprised “So nothing big?”

“No…like I said some relaxing time with you.”

Well…Miki is an indoor type…

And actually it feels good to be with her, alone. Nobody around us, watching us or anything else.

“No Problem with me. We still got tomorrow for a little walk or so, right?”

Miki nodded and smiled like a little kid.

“So…ready for a little bath hmmm?” I asked.

“Oh yes~ I need it really badly right now!”

We both nodded and went to the hot springs.

We took our clothes off and washed ourselves and then slowly climbed into the hot water.

“Ahh…” Miki sighed, “So good….”

I closed my eyes, letting the water calm down my senses.

“Miki…can I ask you something?”

“Sure…” she replied and closed her eyes.

“Have you…had you ever slept with someone?” I asked shyly. We never talked about sex or things like that. I don’t even know why I asked…

“No…” she replied calm, “What about you...”

“Not directly…” I sighed, “It was so stupid…we were drunk, got undressed and then I realised what I was doing. Before he could enter me I pushed him away, got dressed again and left…He wasn’t even my boyfriend. Stupid huh?”

Miki laughed quiet, “Yeah…but you did the right thing…I think…”

I laughed, opened my eyes and looked to my right. She was relaxed and still had her eyes closed.

“I think…when you do it with someone it should be special and with one who you love…right?”

“It should…shouldn’t it?” Miki whispered and looked at me with a smile.

I smiled back, put my arm around her neck and gave her a kiss on her cheek.

Miki laid her head on my shoulder.

“So…we are both virgins…”

“Yeah…but its ok isn’t it?” she asked.

I thought about it…

“It is, isn’t it….? Aya…?”


“Eh?” Miki looked at me. I blushed and looked away.

“Well…uh…d-doesn’t matter.” I cut off.

Miki stared irritated at me.

“What?” I asked.

“N-nothing…” she said and still stared, “Well…there is! What do you think Aya-chan?”

“I just…think…you know…you and…me…Stop! Stop! Doesn’t matter forget it!” I laughed weakly.

Miki stood up suddenly.

“W-where ya going?! I asked.

“Back…to our room!” She shouted back.

What was wrong with her?? “Are you ok?!” I shouted.

“Uhhh!!” Miki threw her arms into the air and disappeared.

I stood up as well and followed her. Her things were gone. Quickly I got dressed too and ran to our


“Miki? What’s wrong?” I asked as I saw her sitting on the floor.

“Why can’t you never get straight to a point?!”

“How do you mean that?”

I asked and sat beside her.

She lowered her head and looked onto the floor, “Say what you want…don’t babble some stuff that is

rubbish…Damn…Come on! Say what you feel! Tell me what you want, what you want to say to me!”

I thought about it…

“I- I…” I began, “I would like to go a level up…o-only if you want as well…”

“You think…this is a game?” She gave me her death glare.


“Well that is what you said right now…”

“DAMN MIKI!!! Ok, I want Sex with you! Want to feel you in other ways then before!” I began

to shout, “But…I’m scared…I don’t know what you want…and if you even want to…” I said shyly.

“That wasn’t that hard was it?” Miki smiled and stroked my cheek.

I nodded irritated.

Does she want to or not…?

“You know…we going to miss the fireworks and all that…” she said with a naughty voice as she

unbuttoned my shirt.

My heart was bouncing faster. This is what I wanted, and it looks like she wanted it too.

I put down all of my guards and wanted to have fun.

“I don’t care!” I said and kissed her neck.

Bring it on!


“Our first time Aya-chan.” Miki whispered and threw my shirt away.

“Yeah…” I replied kneeling on my knees and made Miki sat on my lap.

My hands slipped underneath her shirt and took it of her.

“Hmm no bra…” I grinned.

Miki giggled.

I kissed her deeply and ran my nails gently up her stomach.

Her body was trembling.

She stretched her neck and I used the chance and began to kiss her neck.

Mikitty ran her hands down and played with my bra and opened it with a little tug.

Suddenly she pushed me down onto the futon and gave me lots of deep kisses.

“You know exactly how to turn me on…” I told her.

“I know.” She replied and raised her eyebrows in a flirty way.

My head was spinning and shouting for more. Actually I never thought of the fact sleeping with a girl

someday. Miki changed everything in me. From colleagues to friends and from friends to lovers.

She loved me for years and didn’t give it up until my statement on our Futarigoto. Her heart must

have been aching after I went out with some boys over the years. And so I felt too after I had fallen for her and she was dating this mountain gorilla.

“I love you.” I whispered and swapped positions with her.

We got out of our last sheet of clothes.

Slowly I made my way down to her breasts. I touched and kissed them softly.

Miki began to sigh lightly.

One thing led to another and soon the most intimate part was there.

“Tell me when it hurts yeah? I don’t want to hurt you…I erm…” I stuttered and stopped with my actions, feeling quite embarrassing suddenly.

She slapped my cheek playfully and kissed me, “Yeah, yeah, keep going.”

I gave her a kiss onto her forehead and continued.

The air was getting hotter with any minute.

Miki began to groan louder. Pearls of sweat were running down on our overheated bodies.

Minutes were passing by. She began to moan my name.

Bangs and Booms were hearing outside.

A loud scream filled with high pleasure exploded the room. Its echo was repeating in my ears.

“Happy n-new…year…” I gasped and slowly and carefully collapsed on Miki.

I buried my face on her shoulder.

My lungs were burning and I tried hard to breathe some air.

Miki’s heart was pumping hard, so did mine.

Her fingers were tickling my neck, making me tired.

It took some while until we both relaxed.

I cleared my throat, “A-Amazing…”

“Hmmhmmm…well done…”

“Do you feel ok?”

“Definitely…” she whispered with a smile.

I placed a sleepy kiss onto her lips.

“Love you Aya…”

“Love you too.”

She wrapped her arms around my waist and rested her head on my chest.

It didn’t take long until we fell into dreamland…..